I'm bulimic. I haven't eaten anything without throwing it up for 3 weeks now.

I just saw your picture! It matches your personality so well! Cute, adorable, witty, caring, perfect. You're too cute to be true!

I hate myself. Sometimes it's a dull aching in the back of my mind, sometimes it's crippling. I keep telling myself it'll fade with age, maybe I'll latch on to a healthier emotion, but I see no signs of it disappearing anytime soon. I'm in pain.

I'm scaring myself all the time. Sometimes I find myself wishing good people like my friends or family could be dead without a bigger reason or I get really happy while hearing about bad things happening. I'm a good person, I really am, and I don't know what's going on with me. I also have really realistic dreams and fantasies about hurting people I know. I'm so scared I'm actually gonna do something like that one day.

Thank you for doing this, it really helps that I can tell someone how I feel.

My family is going through a really hard time right now, and I have to smile and put on a really happy face while trying to hold us all together even though I just want to curl up and cry most of the time. I'm supposed to be finding a job with my degree and interviewing, but I'm just so scared and hurting so much that I end up burying myself in distractions because it's the only thing that makes me half-way happy until the panic sets in that I've let another day slip by without productivity.

Sometimes I get really sad so I turn to the 'I don't give a fu*k' attitude and go smoke cigarettes and drink. I don't usually do that, but it relaxes me, helps me cope with my problems and not many people know this...